I’m an emotions stuffer, I always have been. I think it’s part my personality and part survival tactic of a childhood abuse survivor, so I’m not always sure how I’m feeling or what I’m feeling. What I have learned is my body tells me when I’m stressed and when I’m extremely stressed or overwhelmed I get the good ol eye twitch. Right now my eye twitch is going strong. I have been in one of those survival mode stages of life for the last couple of years and it’s exhausting and hard. God gave me a verse a couple weeks ago Galatians 6:9 “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” I needed that verse and and I love that God comforted me with it.
God called me to be a voice in the MeToo movement, at a time in my life I was the most weary, had the least resources and time, and God has been with me through it all, providing, comforting, and giving me strength the entire way.
One of the things I learned young during my abuse was to find God in the chaos, and it’s what I have continued to do throughout life, especially in the hard times. He is always there. It doesn’t mean I understand it, or like it ,or wish that it could be different, but I can honestly say that when I look to see where God is in my mess, He is always there.
If you are in one of those eye twitch stages of life, I see you. It’s hard. It won’t last forever, and you are not alone.